Regular readers of this blog may remember that I have neurochemical problems. (You know that blog entry attracts more comment spam than all the others combined. I wonder why that is.) My brain doesn't regulate its neurotransmitters properly and, for reasons no one really understands, this causes depression. Quite serious depression. I take medication for it but the medication has a pattern, with me, of working for a couple of years and then gradually losing effectiveness.
Scanning of my blog and Live Journal suggests this began to happen this year around May or June. Of course, I visited my family in June so it was hard to notice. But depression is always insidious, sneaking up gradually and quietly. (I'm not sure I ever really recovered from the 2004 election actually.) I began to notice in late summer and was working at coping and defeating. I knew I needed to see the doctor, but part of depression is immobilization, lethargy, and inertia.
A crisis occurred last month. I survived and am seeing a doctor now. Working on some med changes, and struggling to climb out of the pit. It's being really hard this time. Anyway. So that's what's been going on. I may or may not write or post more. I don't know; I can't say. Especially since I'm not really sure why I do this anyway.