I just can't. These days when I try to read the political blogs I used to read regularly last year I just can't. My eyes glaze over and I can't focus my concentration enough to pay attention to what they're saying.
I can't read Media Matters for America. I get angry and feel helpless and defeated. Listening to the news and attempting to participate in political discussions overwhelms me in the same fashion.
You don't even want to know about the fear and frustration engendered by my recent week in Oklahoma.
I spent so much time and energy on these topics last year. I talked and wrote and donated money and rang doorbells and helped organize and all that stuff. I read the news and the blogs compulsively. Then came the election and the subsequent depression. Then I had major surgery in January. (knee replacement) It's amazing how much of your time, energy, and attention something like that sucks up. And my health has been generally poor since the surgery. Too many colds and infections -- things I don't ordinarily have.
So I've been wondering what to do with this blog. I just can't do the political stuff at all these days. Should I give up? Keep it going as a non-political blog? The feelings of doubt and guilt have made it more difficult to address these questions and my future plans. And bottom line? I still don't know what I'm going to do. Maybe I'll just let it wither away gradually.